I missed RUF tonight so I was looking through my itunes for some good songs to worship with in between all of the homework I am doing tonight. I came upon "The More I Seek You", a song I have heard a couple of times but never in a situation where I have actually listened to the lyrics. I just downloaded it the other day because I love the voice of the girl singing it. Anyway, I have had it on repeat for about an hour :) If you don't know the song... it has very simple words:
the more I seek You
the more I find You
the more I find You
the more I love You
The words struck me(and continue striking me :) so strongly... in a very humbling way. Basically, I find myself wondering why I am not finding Him in every single facet of life and it all goes back to my unwillingness to constantly, actively, diligently SEEK Him... I am content with knowing the basics of His character. I know this is corny, but I feel like I am just looking for the "cliff notes version" of His Word instead of utilizing every word of it. I find myself satisfied with where I am and honestly, I think being satisfied with mediocrity is one of the worst things EVER! That being said, I am so thankful that He brings this to my attention every so often... it reminds me how much I need Him. But seriously... those lyrics! So simple... but so true. Obviously, the more I seek him, the more I will find Him... and the more I find Him, the more I know about Him, the more I see His hand in every little detail, the more I LOVE Him! I mean, how could my love for Him not increase when I know how ridiculously incredible He is!?!
Anyway, the rest of the song goes on to say:
I wanna sit at Your feet
drink from the cup in Your hands
Lay back against You and breathe
feel Your heart beat
This love is so deep
it's more than I can stand
I melt in your peace
Do you ever feel guilty singing certain words to songs because you realize you aren't really representing the type of love the words portray?? Maybe not. Or that question might not have made sense... but, I guess I just ask myself "Do you really want to know Him that well?? and if so, why are you not acting like it? Why are you not seeking Him with every ounce of who you are?" I DO want to know everything about Him, but I just forget that sometimes!!
Okay, I guess that is enough for tonight....!! Hopefully, for y'all's sake, my future posts will be more legible and even funny possibly?? We'll see :)